Time as an Element of Beauty (Podcast #55)

My heart is overflowing today with God’s goodness. I have been looking back and reflecting on the last nine months, how he has brought me through so much that seemed impossible. While I have been sitting and feeding the baby, I have been reading over things I’ve written over the last nine months–my journals, weekly…

Birth and the Bravest Version of Myself (Podcast #54)

God has used birth like nothing else in my life to get my attention, to draw me close to Him, to help me surrender deeply to the life that I know He has called me to, despite my own fears and feelings of overwhelm and inadequacy. In this episode, 4 weeks away from my 9th…

Cast Your Cares (Podcast #53)

Today’s episode is for anyone who wakes up in the middle of the night with questions that don’t have answers. If you are struggling with fears of what might happen, or wrestling with thoughts of if only things had happened differently, pull up a chair and let’s talk about finding God in this moment, the…

Certain Faith in Uncertain Times (Podcast #52)

What does it look like to have faith even when the answers are unclear, when there are problems that don’t resolve, when you don’t know how you are going to make it through? In this episode, I am talking about living with certain faith, even in the midst of uncertain times. I hope it is…

Holding On and Letting Go (Podcast #51)

I find that one of the greatest lessons that motherhood is teaching me is how to hold onto the things that I desperately love while also learning, little by little, to let these things go. In this episode, I share what this looks like for me in this season of eight children, ages 2-15, with…

When the Everyday Doesn’t Feel Sacred (Podcast #50)

When life is a series of never-ending struggles, when the work is never done, when it all seems drained of joy and beauty, then what? How do we continue to inhabit our lives with grace and keep searching for God in all of it? If you feel a that you have lost control, or that…

Listening for God’s Voice (Podcast #49)

Over the last few weeks, we have been experiencing a move of God in our family. In today’s episode, I’m sharing some of the ways he is bringing new hope to my life, how he has touched my marriage and our family, and how we are learning to listen for God’s voice, guidance, and direction…

Marriage, Hope, Love, and Longing (Podcast #48)

Next month, Randy and I celebrate 20 years of marriage. When I look back, I am amazed at the work God has done in our lives through the process of two becoming one. In today’s podcast, I want to share a new thing that God is doing in my heart, and how he is redefining…

Sometimes Hopes Come Back to Life

A year ago, after a great disappointment of the soul, I wrote these words: Sometimes small hopes die. And there is a grief that comes to us that cannot be measured by reason. A future that has lived in the illuminated imagination of the mind is set backward in time and exists only in shadowy…

My Ramble from a Cozy Cottage in the Woods (Podcast #46)

I have missed making podcasts this last month! It has been a really busy time for me because I’ve given myself a deadline to complete something that I’ve been dreaming about for over a decade. Listen to today’s podcast, recorded at a quiet cozy cottage in the woods, where I have been working away, getting…

Life in a Big Family (Podcast #45)

“How do you do it?” I have been asked this question so. many. times. When people learn that we have eight children ages 1-15, I think they are genuinely curious what our life looks like. Today I am sharing a bit about life as a mother of a large family, as well as some thoughts…

Moving into a Year with No Fear and No Regrets (Podcast #44)

On the last day of the year, I reflect on 2022, thinking about how this year has been different, what I have learned and some of the milestones of this year. I share some of our own family rhythms that we’ve established this year that have been making home in a family with eight children…