Time as an Element of Beauty (Podcast #55)

My heart is overflowing today with God’s goodness. I have been looking back and reflecting on the last nine months, how he has brought me through so much that seemed impossible. While I have been sitting and feeding the baby, I have been reading over things I’ve written over the last nine months–my journals, weekly…

Birth and the Bravest Version of Myself (Podcast #54)

God has used birth like nothing else in my life to get my attention, to draw me close to Him, to help me surrender deeply to the life that I know He has called me to, despite my own fears and feelings of overwhelm and inadequacy. In this episode, 4 weeks away from my 9th…

Cast Your Cares (Podcast #53)

Today’s episode is for anyone who wakes up in the middle of the night with questions that don’t have answers. If you are struggling with fears of what might happen, or wrestling with thoughts of if only things had happened differently, pull up a chair and let’s talk about finding God in this moment, the…

Certain Faith in Uncertain Times (Podcast #52)

What does it look like to have faith even when the answers are unclear, when there are problems that don’t resolve, when you don’t know how you are going to make it through? In this episode, I am talking about living with certain faith, even in the midst of uncertain times. I hope it is…

When the Everyday Doesn’t Feel Sacred (Podcast #50)

When life is a series of never-ending struggles, when the work is never done, when it all seems drained of joy and beauty, then what? How do we continue to inhabit our lives with grace and keep searching for God in all of it? If you feel a that you have lost control, or that…

Listening for God’s Voice (Podcast #49)

Over the last few weeks, we have been experiencing a move of God in our family. In today’s episode, I’m sharing some of the ways he is bringing new hope to my life, how he has touched my marriage and our family, and how we are learning to listen for God’s voice, guidance, and direction…

Motherhood When It’s All Too Much (Podcast #31)

Have you ever found yourself wondering what you were thinking when you believed you were capable of raising children into adulthood? Or have you ever been overwhelmed by a season in your family when it just all seemed too much? Sometimes, this happens to me. (Ok, it happens to me a lot…) I realize that…

Motherhood Begins With Surrender

Motherhood begins with surrender.For the sake of love, yes,but surrender all the samethe body the mind the soul the spiritbends to the body that breaks openthe womb, the silent seedthat buries itself into the earthof the secret place within If birth isn’t surrenderForget everything I’ve ever saidOr don’t you remember when all you could do…

The Memory and Promise of Light

There are moments, in the middle of the night, when the electricity of current events sends a shockwave through my sleeping body and wakes me, wide-eyed and shaken. What is going to happen to this broken world? I see myself, gathering my children around me like the mother in a fairy tale, walking into a…

The Climax of a Real Story

The climax of a real story is always movinggrowing upgraduationtruelovemarriagebecoming a mothergetting the kids to bed so you can finally sit down for the eveninghitting send to the publisher after a decade of writinggetting the kitchen clean after breakfast In stories, there is one climax. And then there is the hope of sustained joy.There isn’t…

The Dreams of a Stranger (A Miracle Remembered)

*This is the story of a miracle that our family experienced a year ago. Not a day has gone by that we have not felt the significance of it. God answered the deepest prayers of my heart and even beyond that, he met needs I did not know I had. I wrote many of these…